The pre-race haul, going back to 2011.
I was plowing through my April to-do list, and it's shocking at everything I have been doing, between work, baseball, marching band, skating, and family stuff. I was surprised two weeks out that the race was coming up quickly, while running through the Philadelphia airport from Gate F37 to B13 so I wouldn't miss my connecting flight to Pittsburgh.
I honestly kinda forgot to train.
Sure, there were lame attempts on the elliptical, but by the time I got home from photographing one of Will's games as designated administrator of the CP JV BB FB page, or hitting a desperate deadline at work, I felt I had already run a marathon. So got my freebies from the expo, put on my Air Nikes, and hoped for the best.
A true participation medal - but I'm not sad
I felt the burn and shame of not properly training in the first mile, my shins screaming at me for being very stupid. I saw my friend Brandon, who was encouraging some of his clients along the route, and he waved me up to join him. My body protested, and I took on a power walking stance and waved him on.
I did what every good Polish Catholic girl would do and beat myself up for the next mile. I grumbled that I should start over at the start line for the 5k walk, as that would be more honest. But then I mugged for the cameramen at various checkpoints, pretending to run for a stretch so the photos would be good. I relied on my old artistic perspective of finding things along the route that I wouldn't have otherwise seen if I were in my car, such as the ice sculpture building with its zipper illusion, getting "atta girl!" cheers from the homeless guys chain-smoking by the railroad tracks, enjoying the beautiful spring morning and flowering trees, and of course the Beatles channel.
Approaching the finish line, I didn't hot dog it - I didn't want any additional cheers or display any fake bravado. I was pleased to find that I finished better than I had the last two times I did the race when I was injured, so I have some redemption. I also found out I finished dead ass last in my age group, and felt I deserved that.
And yet, it felt good, somehow. Again, quitting was never an option.
I whipped out my Tieks blue bag from my thigh pocket, helped myself to the finish line goodies, and went inside for my celebratory beer. I sat with stranger Ben, who admitted he has slowed in his middle age and only does this race once a year, cajoled into doing it with his healthier friends for the chance to celebrate their finishes with more beer and burgers when they finished their 10K and 25K races.
So what do I want out of these races anymore? I've never claimed to be a runner, and yet I have 14 medals from this event alone, one of which is my second-best in age group from 2020. I want to make it to the 50th anniversary of the race in 2027, then retire to volunteer; I'm looking forward to the end. My boot box is full, but I think there's space for a couple more medals, and room on the lid for a couple more songs. For this year, I need to add Paul McCartney and Wings "Rock Show."